>> politik dalam ofis..

salam to all readers..

bekerja dalam family company ni memang kena kuat mental dan fizikal.

'family' company, maksud aku, company yang family punye la..

kalau kau buat salah..

kau dipersalahkan..

kalau orang lain buat salah (especially family dia)..

kau juga akan dipersalahkan..

in the end..

semua salah kau..

konon nak buat discussion one-to-one..

suruh be open-minded bagai..

tapi based on my observation,

once i tell your weakness, you will forever hunt me with all my flaws..


hmmmmm..
cepat la dapat kerja lain..
aku dah tak tahan dah weyhhhh!!!

>> Another Oh Hae Yong, but not another her..

salam to all readers..

lately the story line of k-drama that i've watched are pretty much related to myself..

somehow i can see myself in the characters..

Another Oh Hae Yong.. a.k.a Another Miss Oh..

it is a story of a girl who are kept being compared with someone with the same name as her..

and it happens that someone is more pretty, smarter and richer than her..

thus she is constantly being compared even to the slightest things..

oh seriously..

i understand that feelings really well..
i mean, really really really really really well..

because i've been there too..

even now i am still being compared with others..

i know she is everyone's dream..

everyone want to become like her..

but please..

i'm not her..

and i don't want to be her..

I JUST WANT TO BE THE BETTER VERSION OF MYSELF

*same as Just Oh Hae Yong saying*

because i know..

deep in my heart..

i am not her..

i can't be like her..

and never will..

so stop comparing us okay..

one thing that i admire Oh Hae Yong is she is really brave in expressing herself to others..
unlike me..
i am someone who keep everything to myself..
and sometimes i do want to explode too..
but in the end, i just cry alone because i know nothing can be better even if i express myself like Oh Hae Yong did..
at least Oh Hae Yong has her parents who always support her no matter what decision she makes..
me??
my family are the one who keep comparing me with others..
how does it makes me feel?

because i am too used to being compared with others..
i even develop something that i shouldn't have to..
i am now keep comparing myself with others too, even when i really really really hate it..
sad, isn't it?

and this is me..
someone who are always in a constant fight with herself..
i may seem bubbly, cheerful, etc.
but at the same time i keep comparing myself with others..
and i always feels like a loser..

no matter what..
life must go on..
so..

>> best interview ever..

its the best interview ever in my life..

 its not because i confirm get the job..

but it is the best interview because i am confident with myself throughout the interview!

i am finally can be proud of myself in front of strangers!

and it is during the job interview!!

this is the best feeling ever..

i dont know whether i get the job or not, because the result is not immediately..

but i have done my very best for this interview..

even if i didn't get it..

i'm not regret it..

because finally i have a moment where i am myself and i am proud of it..

sincerely,

someone who constantly having an issue with her inner self,

me

>> mimpi..

salam to all readers..

everytime aku berfangirling dengan si sunghoon (read: kim sang min) ni..

at that night..

aku akan termimpikan seseorang ni..

seseorang yang aku kenal pulak tu..

mula-mula rasa macam pelik je..

kenapa tetibe aku mimpi dia..

takde angin takde ribut..

aku mimpi dia..

hmmmm..

petanda apakah ini?

lepas tu aku saje je la stalk FB and instagram dia..

saje je nak tau update..

takde ape sangat la..

apa yang lagi aku peliknya..

setiap kali aku berfangirling dgn sunghoon kot bende ni terjadi..

kenapa?

kenapaaaa??

kenapaaaaaaaa???

apesal setiap kali aku berfangirling dgn changmin, aku mimpi changmin..

tapi bila aku berfangirling dgn sunghoon, aku mimpi dia..

dia dengan sunghoon jaaaaaaaauuuuuuuhhhh giler beza kot..

tak serupa langsung..

tang mana yang sama tu pun aku tak tau la..

hmmmmm..

apakah petandanya?

[TVXQ collections] Changmin 1st Mini Album - Close To You

salam to all readers..

i want to introduce my new collection..

Changmin 1st Mini Album - Close To You..

fyi, this solo album is really really really hard to get..

because it just happen to release once only..

and never have any pre-order anymore after that..

unlike most of the kpop albums..

and some more only official bigeast that can buy this at that time..

so you must know someone who are the official bigeast fanclub members to buy it for you..

quite complicated, isn't it?

by the way..

this is actually preloved item that i purchased from Far-Ra Aina's Korean Stuffs..

i love it so much!!

thanks unnie for letting go this precious album to me..

the cover..

i don't really like his picture on the cover..

because he looks somewhat creepy..

hmmmm...

lets cover it with something else..

that's a bit better..

*evil laugh*

fyi, if you purchase any albums from Far-Ra Aina, she will give you a 4R 'postcard' full with your ultimate bias pictures..

i love it so much..

and it never disappointed me every time..

unnie, keep up the good work!

*p/s: i'll share other 'postcards' that i got from her in other entries*

the main difference between korean and japanese albums are the language..

this album is japanese..

so for sure the lyrics was also in japanese..

which is i can't read..

and i can't understand..

so, if i want to sing all these songs..

lets google the lyrics..

*romanization lyrics, i means*

and yeah..

a sneak peak inside the album..

honestly, i am almost never play the CD/DVD that i bought..

why?

simply because i already downloaded all of the songs, MVs, videos etc.

so, the album is just for collection purpose only..

it just another side of weird me..

some of my favorite pictures inside the photobook..

his stare..

*omg.. dies*

doesn't he looks adorable like this?

and yeah..

that's all for now..

tata!