if social media is the way i vent my anger..
most probably, there will be war..
against family n friends..

seriously..
i mean this..

>> murah sangat, boleh caye ke??

salam to all readers..

(^_^)

hari tu jalan-jalan kat masjid jamek, terjumpa pendrive murah-murah..

yang menarik perhatian, pendrive 516GB, harga rm20 je..

wow..

murah sgt tu..

member aku beli, aku tak..

dia kata, "senang nak amik running man dari kau.."

hahahaha..

betul gak tu..

hari ni, proses transfer mentrasfer pun bermula..

total disk space: 499GB..

aku masuk 5 episode running man, still have a looooooooooot of space..

so, kira betul la kan?

ok..

lepas ni dah tahu nk cari pendrive kat mana..

hehehhee..

dan boleh la mentransfer balik segala macam drama dlm dvd, masuk pendrive je..

convenient.

(^_^)

>> my life in conclusion..

salam to all readers..

=)

honestly, sejak aku kerja..

 i am a sole supporter of the family..

groceries, bills, etc. sume aku yg tanggung..

bukan nak berkira, but the way they talk to me like i'm a burden to them..

macam aku ni menyusahkan giler..

sakit hati tak?

dari ikhlas nak bantu, tetibe rase mcm terbantut dah..

yer..

niat aku nak kerja sebab nak support my family..

nama je anak no 4, but my responsibilities are like i'm the oldest here..

the truth is, maybe yes, sebab aku je yg paling tua yang tak kahwin lagi..

so, kahwin jom?

anyone?

actually, i have no intention of getting married because i'm afraid i will build a family with hatred like this.

yes..

you read it right..

hatred.

when you think family members are reliable, i need to think it hundreds time before asking for their help.

yup..

its not my fault that i think like this..

and no one should be blamed of this..

even though i want to blame someone..

it will end up i'm blaming myself for it..

when you think you have the biggest family problem in the world.

i want to let you know..

i have it all..

the worst part is, i can't even express myself about it, or else, i will be considered as anak derhaka.

what?

if you think be in my shoes is like a piece of cake..

and my life is normal..

you are wrong..

my life is not normal..

have you ever have the moment when you truly have no money, no food, nothing..

and just silently cry because of that?

i have.

many time..

kadang-kadang bende kecik-kecik je pun yang takde nye..

contohnye, nak masak ayam goreng..

ayam je yang ada..

garam, serbuk kunyit, minyak sume takde..

duit pun takde nak beli..

end up tak jadi ayam goreng pun..

jadi la ayam-masak-je-guna-barang-yang-ada..

itu ayam ada, dah kira syukur da at least ade gak lauk..

kalau takde lauk?

fikir sendiri..

teringat dulu time aku nak study..

tapi takde meja study pun kat rumah..

ok lagi..

masuk bilik, kene halau keluar sebab adik nak tido..

ok.. aku study kat luar..

baru je bukak buku, dapat arahan "tutup lampu, tak boleh tidur ni.. silau.."

okay..

memang aku pelajar cemerlang la kan bila aku boleh study dalam gelap cenggitu kan..

ini la sebab sebenar kenapa aku takleh study kat rumah..

sebab jadi bende mcm ni..

hateful, isn't it?

and they expect you to be excellent student in this kind of situation.

haha.. *gelak sinis

korang?

you have your own room, your own space..

and internet..

and you are whining tak tentu hala kata tak boleh study..

ok..

if you are in my shoes, will you hate someone like that?

now, dah kerja..

i want to cover all the part yg imperfect tu..

first thing first, the basic necessities in daily life..

sabun (baju, badan, shampoo, basuh pinggan, basuh jamban, etc.), beras, garam, gula, tepung, milo, susu, bawang, minyak masak, tisu dan sebagainye..

bende kecik-kecik je.. pada mata korang la kan..

but for me bende kecik ni kumpul-kumpul jadik besar gak..

it all cost approximately RM500 per month..

itu baru barang kering je..

not to mention barang basah - ayam, daging, ikan etc.

say thanks la kepada pakcik N yang korang pangkah hari tu..

kan..

semua barang naik harga..

aku dah cover part the very basic necessities tu..

but yet they still cakap aku kedekut?

berkira?

weyh.. kalau aku berkira sangat, tak mandi, tak makan la kau jawabnye..

bil air pun aku yang bayar..

itu baru berkira..

ini aku diam..

kau tuduh aku macam-macam..

sakit hati tak?

and..

do you want to be me?

>> secrets within yourself..

salam to all readers..

(^_^)

in life, there must be some thing or secret that you don't want anyone to know..

including the one who you think are the most trustworthy..

something that you just want to keep it by yourself..

i think its normal..

isn't it?

for me, that sort of things comes in may layers..

the first outer layer: only friends know about it - most of you are my friends

the second layer: best friends 

third layer: family & BFF

fourth and above : only me..

as what as i see..

people tend to judge me without even know who i am..

hahaha..

muka skema, ingatkan memang skema..

bila da kenal..

paham-paham je la..

haha..

yeah.. when you first see me, most probably you will think i'm kind of nerdy type.

yes, i admit it..

i am nerd..

but nerd who likes to think unexpectable things.

haha!

once you know me, you'll get what i meant by this..

to go to the second layer - most of you, i dont know why..

i'm afraid to reveal myself to you guys..

and i can say that i am too afraid your reactions afterwards.

i dont mind be rejected being your friend, but i mind what will you think of me afterwards.

yes..

the aftermaths.

its killing me when i think of that..

i guess my paranoia over these thing getting serious lately.

how to overcome this feeling?

i know i make mistakes because of this..

i'm sorry..

i can't help it..

>> TVXQ theme for my phone..

salam to all readers..

(^_^)v

gatal-gatal tangan cari TVXQ theme kat Play Store..

terjumpa ini..

maka, bergembira la cik liana hari-hari tengok muka hensem ChangMin & YunHo..

hahahaha..

(^_^)v

>> DIY paint by numbers..

salam to all readers..

^_^

misi mencari hobi baru bermula..

hobi selain tgk drama korea dan pergi konset kpop..

haha..

this time, aku beli DIY paint by numbers set from groupon deal..

oh yeah..

sejak kerja ofis ni, i rajin tengok deal sana deal sini..

mwahahahaha..

hari tu aku beli RM 38 sebab ada promotion..

but now, the promotion closed, and i dont know when they will reopen promo for this DIY kit..

i definitely will buy this again..

what you get is a complete set of:

1 x number-guided painting canvas

1 x paint set

3 x brush

1 x wall hanger

1 x reference painting

after about a month of hard work, finally its done..

makan masa sebulan sebab aku buat time balik kerja, and time ade mood saje..

harap maklum..

first stage

second stage

third stage

fourth stage

and tadaaaaa....

done!

dalam stage 3 baru nampak naik sikit kaler dia kan..

mak aku pun pelik menatang apa la yang aku beli ni sebenarnye..

bila kat stage 3 tu baru nampak sikit, gambar bunga-bunga rupanya..

hahaha..

"sebab ade pink + merah, baru nampak seri dia naik" -mak

lepas habis je painting ni, cepat-cepat aku bukak groupon/mydeals utk tengok kot-kot ade promo lagi tak on this item..

sadly, no..

the cheapest price i found on the internet - lelong/ebay/mudah etc.

rm48++

a bit pricey..

tahun lepas aku tgk kt MPH, this thing cost RM70++ tahu..

hmmmm...

belek punya belek punya belek..

i dah berkenan kat design ni pulak dah..

set of 3..

RM99

will i buy it?

jeng jeng jeng..

we will see....

best jugak painting by numbers ni..

at least ade fefeeling artistic gitu..

fyi, aku sangat-sangat-sangat tak reti mewarna dengan cantik..

ha.. nampak tak berapa banyak 'sangat' kat situ..

aku lukis pandai la, bab mewarna mmg fail..

hahaha.

the sense of achievement bila habis buat tu, mmg best la..

rasa mcm nak buat lagi..

dan lagi..

dan lagi..

hehehehe...

ini boleh dijadikan hobi ni..

till next time..

peace!

(^_^)v