>> Another Oh Hae Yong, but not another her..

salam to all readers..

lately the story line of k-drama that i've watched are pretty much related to myself..

somehow i can see myself in the characters..

Another Oh Hae Yong.. a.k.a Another Miss Oh..

it is a story of a girl who are kept being compared with someone with the same name as her..

and it happens that someone is more pretty, smarter and richer than her..

thus she is constantly being compared even to the slightest things..

oh seriously..

i understand that feelings really well..
i mean, really really really really really well..

because i've been there too..

even now i am still being compared with others..

i know she is everyone's dream..

everyone want to become like her..

but please..

i'm not her..

and i don't want to be her..

I JUST WANT TO BE THE BETTER VERSION OF MYSELF

*same as Just Oh Hae Yong saying*

because i know..

deep in my heart..

i am not her..

i can't be like her..

and never will..

so stop comparing us okay..

one thing that i admire Oh Hae Yong is she is really brave in expressing herself to others..
unlike me..
i am someone who keep everything to myself..
and sometimes i do want to explode too..
but in the end, i just cry alone because i know nothing can be better even if i express myself like Oh Hae Yong did..
at least Oh Hae Yong has her parents who always support her no matter what decision she makes..
me??
my family are the one who keep comparing me with others..
how does it makes me feel?

because i am too used to being compared with others..
i even develop something that i shouldn't have to..
i am now keep comparing myself with others too, even when i really really really hate it..
sad, isn't it?

and this is me..
someone who are always in a constant fight with herself..
i may seem bubbly, cheerful, etc.
but at the same time i keep comparing myself with others..
and i always feels like a loser..

no matter what..
life must go on..
so..

minat..

salam to all readers..

this may sounds ridiculous..

but one of my dream now is to collect all TVXQ official albums and merchandise..

including korean and japanese singles, repackage albums and all..

ada yang tanya, berbaloi ke beli album ni semua?

entah la..

hard to explain to people who don't understand..

just put it in simple way..

when you like something, you will acquire it right?

and when you obsess with something, you will collect all related stuffs according to your obsessions right?

antara contoh paling mudah..

kau minat gila dengan bola sepak.. so ko sanggup spend duit untuk beli jersey mahal-mahal, kasut bola, bola dan sebagainya dan kau juga akan jadi ahli kelab bola etc untuk jumpa orang yang sama minat dengan kau..

betul tak?

kau minat main badminton.. so ko sanggup spend duit beli raket mahal-mahal, shutter and every other equipment and try to find people with the same interest..

betul tak?

kau minat dunia permotoran.. so ko sanggup spend duit untuk modified motor ko bagi laju, bagi power, pastu beli helmet mahal-mahal harga beribu dan kongsi minat tu dengan geng-geng motor kau..

betul tak?

kau minat jam.. so ko sanggup spend duit untuk beli jam mahal dan cari jam series yang ko minat tu dan buat collection..

betul tak?

kau minat lego.. so ko sanggup spend duit untuk beli lego yang harga ratus-ratus sebab kau suka dan kau nak buat collection jugak..

betul tak?

kau minat artis tu.. so ko sanggup spend duit untuk beli album, majalah, photobook dan sebagainya.. dan kau juga sanggup berhabis duit untuk pergi konsert artis tersebut bila artis tu ade buat konsert kat area berdekatan dengan kau.. kau akan support artis tu dengan undi dia bagi kategori-kategori yg artis tu tercalon supaya dia dapat anugerah artist of the year gitu..

betul tak?

in my case, aku obsess minat dengan TVXQ..

so aku sanggup habis duit untuk beli album semua tu..

aku sanggup habis duit untuk pergi konsert sebab nak tengok dia live depan mata..

and after explaining all these thing..

the same question again..

berbaloi ke kau beli ni semua?

rasa macam malas dah nak explain lagi dengan orang macam ni..

kesimpulannya..

every each of us has different minat..

kau minat bola..

kau minat badminton..

kau minat motor..

kau minat jam..

kau minat lego..

aku minat TVXQ..

ade aku memperlekehkan minat kau?

takde kan..

ade aku memandang hina minat kau?

takde kan..

ade aku pandang serong dengan minat kau?

takde jugak kan..

tapi kenapa korang pandang serong dengan minat aku?

kenapa?

kenapa..??

kenapa...........???

ape salah aku??

moral of the story..

mari lah kita sama-sama menghormati minat masing-masing..

dont be too prejudice, okay?

peace!

>> dont judge a book by its cover..

salam to all readers.. =)

one fine day, time aku tengah leka menelaah kerja aku..

Leong said, 

"liana.. i tak sangka u dah berubah.."

takde angin takde ribut, tetiba je dia cakap mcm tu dgn aku..

aku pun pelik la.. "ha..??"

"ye la.. u sangat lain sekarang.."

"eh.. apa yang lain nye? u kenal i yang dulu ke sampai u boleh keluar statement mcm tu??"

"haiyaa.. susah mau explain.. tapi u memang lain la dari dulu.."

maka, otak aku pun ligat memikirkan mengapa beliau mengeluarkan kenyataan tersebut..

suddenly terdetik, ni mesti kes dia ingat aku budak nerd yg jenis study je sokmo ni.. 

yg jenis buat kerja tanpa membantah dan ikut telunjuk org atasan je ni.. 

senang cite jenis budak 'baik' la..

ye la.. 

dulu pun mana ade kitorg share anything.. 

mana ada spend masa sama-sama after working hours kan..

"ni mesti sebab u ingat i jenis pendiam je kan.."

dia angguk..

"mesti u ingat i jenis budak 'baik' duduk rumah je kan.."

dia angguk lagi..

"mesti u tak sangka i gila kpop kan.."

dia angguk dengan lagi laju.. *damn*

"i ingat u jenis mama girl.. budak 'baik' yg always follow the rules.."

"rules are meant to be broken.. hehehe.."

yup.. sometimes i like to rebel..

saya budak nakal yg orang tak tahu kenakalan saya melainkan mereka kenal siapa saya.. *perghh ayat*

"tak sangka u jenis yang suka keluar malam tak mau balik" 

ni kes time mood swing ye kawan-kawan.. 

saya tak begini setiap hari.. harap maklum..

"lepas tu u pun picky eater jugak.. i am a picky eater, tapi you lagi extreme.."

yang ni kes aku suka asingkan instant vege dlm nasi goreng.. 

i hate those instant vege! grrr..

dan aku tak suka makan sayur yang bukan kaler hijau.. pelik kan?

"dan u sangat kuat jalan.. i ingat u jenis duduk rumah baca buku je.."
hahahahaha..
yang ni kes kitorang explore area Ranau time weekend hari tu..
dia kata ni first time dia pergi jalan-jalan a few places in one day, from morning till night..
penat le tu,,

setelah puas gelakkan statement beliau..

"itu la u.. tak kenal maka tak tau.. dont judge a book by its cover.."

actually, bukan dia je yg cakap macam ni.. ramai dah.. ramai sangat..

apa aku ni memang nampak macam budak baik eh?

takde unsur-unsur kenakalan langsung ke?

hahahaha..

tak kenal maka tak cinta..

so, jangan cepat nak judge orang yer kawan-kawan..

aku ni korang nampak je baik, tapi kesetanan diri ini, hmmm.. takde sape yg tau..

begitu jugak la sebaliknya..

yang nampak jahat tu, tak semestinya jahat betul.. mana tahu dia sebenarnya baik ke..

peace!

(^_^)v

[fan account] CNBLUE - Can't Stop In Malaysia

salam to all readers..

=)

wetoriya wetoriya..

dara diri daradu..~~

sesiapa yg minat kpop, mcm agak mustahil la kalau tak tahu lagu ni kan..

and yeah..

CNBLUE is back in Malaysia after exactly one year!

tahun lepas tak kesampaian hajat cik najjah nak tgk JongHyun dia sebab aku ajak tengok ChangMin..

tahun ni, sila tengok JongHyun puas-puas yer..

hehehehe..

fyi, aku rasa, aku ni mcm Kyu-Line supporter pulak dah..

ChangMin, KyuHyun, JongHyun..

sume aku pergi tengok..

tinggal SuHo (EXO) and MinHo (SHINee) je belum lagi..

hahahaha..

back to the story..

this is the view from our seat..

mcm dekat je ngan stage kan..

tapi tak la sedekat mereka-mereka di rock zone tu..

the worst part is, mmg tak nampak langsung la encik drummer yang cute tu..

huwaaaaaaaaa...!!

aku membayangkan encik drummer at least position dia terkedepan sikit ke kan..

but its not..

tempat dia mmg exclusive giler!

belakang sangaaaaaaat..

i suggest, next time, biar dorg buat stage kat tengah2.. 

biar semua fan nampak empat-empat tu kan..

baru la syiok..

hehehe..

and...

the concert begins!

THE TIME IS OVER!!!

dengar je lagu ni, dah tak pikir ape dah..

menjerit macam orang giler..

hahaha..

tak sah le kalau pergi konsert tak jerit-jerit kan..

hehehehe..

enjoy the concert much..

camera entah ke mana, phone entah ke mana..

mata mengadap YongHwa, JongHyun dan JungShin jer..

hihihihi..

i only manage to capture some of their pics..

always.. nampak belakang je..

i don't know why..

T____T

 

front view..

tp blurr...

last-last aku give up nk amik gmbr direct ngan dorang..

so, aku capture kt screen je la..

hahahaha..

the best pic of the day:

ape.. ingat senang ke nak tangkap gambar dorang yg tak reti duduk diam tu?

hahahaha..

time ni dah last-last dah..

baru nampak muka encik drummer..

walaupun tak dpt gambar best-best..

tapi lagu dorang kali ni sume best-best..

and we enjoy the performance to the fullest!!

yang paling aku tak sangka, they include lagu "Endless Night"..

menjerit mcm org histeria jer..

hahahaha..

my feberet kot lagu tu..

suka suka suka.. ;)

p/s: aku rase mcm aku sing along every lagu yg dorang nyanyi..

mesti org depan aku rase menyampah giler kan..

dah la nyanyi kuat-kuat..

hahahaha..

dah habis, kita bergambar la pulak..

hehehehe..

my crime partner..

we, us..

lesson learned..

nak tgk CNBLUE, next time, sila beli Rock Zone..

lagi feel..

baru puas..

hehehehee.

(^_^)v

aku rase amazed giler tgk live performance macam ni..

ye la..

every instrument dorang main sendiri kan untuk semua lagu..

amazing..

dan mereka berempat memang sangat talented..

especially leader-nim, YongHwa..

unforgettable moment:

*sila browse online yer...*

YongHwa punye Malaymalaymalaymalaymalaysia~~

MinHyuk main dengan kamera.. super cute!!

JungShin come to our side, and show off his long leg.. wow!

JonhHyun guitar skills during "In My Head"

best giler!!

please come again.. please please please!!!

>> daily journal..

salam..

=)

i'm trying to keep daily journal..

note down every tiny little things happen in my life in a diary..

diary (book) - check

diary apps (phone) - check

but it always happen like this..

i'm not consistent about keeping a journal..

sad stories, instead of keeping it in journal, i keep it to myself..

and its gone..

when it comes back, it is usually the exact same thing..

boring kan?

happy stories, instead of memorized it, i let it be..

and now, only few good memories left in my head.

sadis nye..

sila konsisten tulis journal, cik liana...

>> murah sangat, boleh caye ke??

salam to all readers..

(^_^)

hari tu jalan-jalan kat masjid jamek, terjumpa pendrive murah-murah..

yang menarik perhatian, pendrive 516GB, harga rm20 je..

wow..

murah sgt tu..

member aku beli, aku tak..

dia kata, "senang nak amik running man dari kau.."

hahahaha..

betul gak tu..

hari ni, proses transfer mentrasfer pun bermula..

total disk space: 499GB..

aku masuk 5 episode running man, still have a looooooooooot of space..

so, kira betul la kan?

ok..

lepas ni dah tahu nk cari pendrive kat mana..

hehehhee..

dan boleh la mentransfer balik segala macam drama dlm dvd, masuk pendrive je..

convenient.

(^_^)

>> my life in conclusion..

salam to all readers..

=)

honestly, sejak aku kerja..

 i am a sole supporter of the family..

groceries, bills, etc. sume aku yg tanggung..

bukan nak berkira, but the way they talk to me like i'm a burden to them..

macam aku ni menyusahkan giler..

sakit hati tak?

dari ikhlas nak bantu, tetibe rase mcm terbantut dah..

yer..

niat aku nak kerja sebab nak support my family..

nama je anak no 4, but my responsibilities are like i'm the oldest here..

the truth is, maybe yes, sebab aku je yg paling tua yang tak kahwin lagi..

so, kahwin jom?

anyone?

actually, i have no intention of getting married because i'm afraid i will build a family with hatred like this.

yes..

you read it right..

hatred.

when you think family members are reliable, i need to think it hundreds time before asking for their help.

yup..

its not my fault that i think like this..

and no one should be blamed of this..

even though i want to blame someone..

it will end up i'm blaming myself for it..

when you think you have the biggest family problem in the world.

i want to let you know..

i have it all..

the worst part is, i can't even express myself about it, or else, i will be considered as anak derhaka.

what?

if you think be in my shoes is like a piece of cake..

and my life is normal..

you are wrong..

my life is not normal..

have you ever have the moment when you truly have no money, no food, nothing..

and just silently cry because of that?

i have.

many time..

kadang-kadang bende kecik-kecik je pun yang takde nye..

contohnye, nak masak ayam goreng..

ayam je yang ada..

garam, serbuk kunyit, minyak sume takde..

duit pun takde nak beli..

end up tak jadi ayam goreng pun..

jadi la ayam-masak-je-guna-barang-yang-ada..

itu ayam ada, dah kira syukur da at least ade gak lauk..

kalau takde lauk?

fikir sendiri..

teringat dulu time aku nak study..

tapi takde meja study pun kat rumah..

ok lagi..

masuk bilik, kene halau keluar sebab adik nak tido..

ok.. aku study kat luar..

baru je bukak buku, dapat arahan "tutup lampu, tak boleh tidur ni.. silau.."

okay..

memang aku pelajar cemerlang la kan bila aku boleh study dalam gelap cenggitu kan..

ini la sebab sebenar kenapa aku takleh study kat rumah..

sebab jadi bende mcm ni..

hateful, isn't it?

and they expect you to be excellent student in this kind of situation.

haha.. *gelak sinis

korang?

you have your own room, your own space..

and internet..

and you are whining tak tentu hala kata tak boleh study..

ok..

if you are in my shoes, will you hate someone like that?

now, dah kerja..

i want to cover all the part yg imperfect tu..

first thing first, the basic necessities in daily life..

sabun (baju, badan, shampoo, basuh pinggan, basuh jamban, etc.), beras, garam, gula, tepung, milo, susu, bawang, minyak masak, tisu dan sebagainye..

bende kecik-kecik je.. pada mata korang la kan..

but for me bende kecik ni kumpul-kumpul jadik besar gak..

it all cost approximately RM500 per month..

itu baru barang kering je..

not to mention barang basah - ayam, daging, ikan etc.

say thanks la kepada pakcik N yang korang pangkah hari tu..

kan..

semua barang naik harga..

aku dah cover part the very basic necessities tu..

but yet they still cakap aku kedekut?

berkira?

weyh.. kalau aku berkira sangat, tak mandi, tak makan la kau jawabnye..

bil air pun aku yang bayar..

itu baru berkira..

ini aku diam..

kau tuduh aku macam-macam..

sakit hati tak?

and..

do you want to be me?

>> secrets within yourself..

salam to all readers..

(^_^)

in life, there must be some thing or secret that you don't want anyone to know..

including the one who you think are the most trustworthy..

something that you just want to keep it by yourself..

i think its normal..

isn't it?

for me, that sort of things comes in may layers..

the first outer layer: only friends know about it - most of you are my friends

the second layer: best friends 

third layer: family & BFF

fourth and above : only me..

as what as i see..

people tend to judge me without even know who i am..

hahaha..

muka skema, ingatkan memang skema..

bila da kenal..

paham-paham je la..

haha..

yeah.. when you first see me, most probably you will think i'm kind of nerdy type.

yes, i admit it..

i am nerd..

but nerd who likes to think unexpectable things.

haha!

once you know me, you'll get what i meant by this..

to go to the second layer - most of you, i dont know why..

i'm afraid to reveal myself to you guys..

and i can say that i am too afraid your reactions afterwards.

i dont mind be rejected being your friend, but i mind what will you think of me afterwards.

yes..

the aftermaths.

its killing me when i think of that..

i guess my paranoia over these thing getting serious lately.

how to overcome this feeling?

i know i make mistakes because of this..

i'm sorry..

i can't help it..

>> hi alls..

salam to all readers..

=)

diam tak diam..

dah dua bulan aku tak tulis blog..

say thanks to my phone, sebab aku dah jarang online guna laptop..

cakap pasal henpon..

i dont know why..

ramai kawan-kawan sedara mara aku ingt aku pakai iphone 5s..

huhuhu..

gua belum mampu beb nak beli iphone..

tambah-tambah lak tujuan gua beli henpon semata-mata nak main game and tgk drama korea..

mmg iphone tu boleh kata out of list la..

*padahal tak mampu.. saje je sedapkan hati..

handphone baru yang tak berapa nak baru..

tadaaaaa....

lenovo S920 kaler biru metalik..

the reason i bought this handphone is simple..

ringan

skrin besar + HD

nipis

dan murah

i dont really care about the specs whatsoever..

sebab for me, i want to buy smartphone because i want to play games and watch drama..

tak boleh bela punye motif kan..

setakat ni ok-ok la..

kadang-kadang hang jugak..

sebab spec hp aku cuma 4GB ram, dan aku tak beli lagi SD card yg berkapasiti besar..

well, you cant expect everything to be perfect sangat la kan..

lain la kalau beli iphone, then hang.. yg tu aku akan lodge report..

p/s: handsome boy pun tukar phone brand yang sama dengan aku pakai.. cuma model lain la.. 

hensem boy..

my ofismate yg sama masuk kerja sama time dgn aku dan hensem..

rupa dia ade la iras-iras cinta pertama aku, Lee Dong Wook..

dulu before dia tukar dept, kitorg selalu balik sama-sama naik LRT sampai wangsa maju..

tapi sekarang, dia da tukar dept, kerja shift..

dah jarang jumpa..

disebabkan time birthday aku hari tu, hensem boy bagi aku kek resipi rahsia..

maka, mereka mereka (ofismet yang lain) ingatkan aku ade apa-apa dengan dia..

skandal la konon kan..

kerja..

so far so good..

i enjoy doing my job..

Alhamdulillah  i am here..

syukur sangat-sangat-sangat..

even though it is not related at all to my studies, i find this job is really interesting..

seriously..

i learn that there is more options available out there other than being an actuary..

actuary..

professional paper..

i dont think i want to take it..

why? 

first: i have no confidence to pass the exam

second: when i have no confidence at it,probability of failure almost 80%, why should i spend money on the things that i am not confident at? and, why should i? i dont want to be an actuary anymore.. i cant stand the pressure.. honestly.

dulu dulu before amik course ni, kemain cakap kat diri sendiri..

liana, you can do it!

be an actuary!

bila dah merasa pelbagai jenis soalan yang macam-macam begitu..

i think actuary is not a good job for me.

need to hunt another dream!

oh ya..

i've told you guys right that at least i achieved my dream to be an actuarial graduate..

yes.. i did..

but i dont know what to do with it now..

at least i've got that feeling of satisfaction on achieving my dream.. 

i'm not regret studying this..

not at all..

hensem boy also an actuarial graduates.. coincidence, isnt it?

so he know how hard it is.. and he know exactly how we (acturial science student) feels..

asyik mention hensem boy je dari tadi, tapi tuan empunya badan tak tahu pun aku panggil dia hensem boy..

hahahahahahha..

for those who are job hunting right now, 

my sincere advice is:

try apply for all kind of jobs available in the market..

dont demand too much, and dont worry too much..

i guess i worry too much about little-little things..

that may be one of the reason why aku lambat sikit dapat kerja kan..

but its okay..

good things will come for those who wait..

;)

interview tips?

nak interview tips?

senang je..

kacang sangat-sangat..

practice..

yup..

practice with youtube..

i do that..

kalau setakat practice sekali, bajet terus ok.. memang sorry la kan..

best jugak jadi org yg berpengalaman pergi interview-interview nih..

i know where exactly i did wrong during the interview.

1st interview: too relaxed, caught up low self confidence when i said this word; "saya cakap bahasa melayu, boleh?" because they asked me about my life, and i couldn't translate it at that time.

2nd interview: too scared of the environment.. it shows you know..

3rd interview: too fake.. sebab aku rasa macam nampak sangat ayat skema.. mcm skema jawapan pun ade gak.. but at least at this time, i gain my confidence with practice.

4th: this is the interview where i got this job..

the crucial questions are:

"can you work time Raya?" 

"can you work during public holidays?"

"what time is the latest you can go back home?"

guess what my answer is..

of course i said i can..

and using my experience as salesgirl at the shoe store - i also work during public holiday what..

no difference..

yang time balik tu tak tahan..

dengan konfiden je aku jawab: "until train station closed."

*jawapan sama dgn hensem boy.. selalu kena sakat dgn ofismet lain bila kitorang OT.. 

hahahahahhaa...

and dont forget to mention about your future with the company.. how you can grow in this company etc.

find it all in google..

5th interview: it is not really an interview, i guess..

anyone know about FSTEP?

i barely made it into the list (bcoz my CGPA tak cukup syarat and i'm not active in ko-k), and went for the English test..

supposedly, there should be interview on the same day, tapi atas certain problems, interview was postponed until further notice.

Alhamdulillah..

i passed the test..

as soon as i passed, i got a call from the 4th interview; stated that i got the job..

then, say bye bye to FSTEP..

tata...

bila buat mcm ni, baru aku sedar..

aku baru pergi 5 interview je..

tapi rase mcm dah pergi banyak giler..

pengalaman kan..

dah dua bulan kerja, baru dapat e-mail dari FSTEP for interview session..

i say bye bye je la..

rezeki aku kat sini..

:)

actually, bila aku mula kerja kat tmpat kerja sekarang ni..

aku dpt byk panggilan interview..

di merata-rata tempat..

bukit jalil, damansara, cyberjaya, bangsar etc.

i reject them all..

why?

sense of loyalty.

secondly, kerja sini ltransport lebih mudah..

and most important: gaji sini lebih tinggi..

kos sara hidup dah naik, takkan la nak kejar benda yang tak pasti, dan lagi kecik kan?

i sounds greedy here..

but it is the fact.

i dont need to buy a car..

i dont need to rent a house..

i can save more by doing this two things..

but i cant really saving because i love to do something unexpextedly!

please someone stop me!

sejak kerja ni, i didnt stop myself that much form doing things that i want..

the problem is, i buy things that i think i will use, but i'm actually not using it.

dumbell.. konon-konon nak exercise.. semingggu pertama je rajin.. pastu ke lautan Hindi kerajinan tu pergi..

storybooks.. beli sampai tiga.. i bought it time offer.. baca 1 chapter, then tak baca-baca dah sampai sekarang..

polariod camera.. since film dah habis dan tak reti-reti nak restock.. maka terbengkalai la beliau di dalam kotak..

can someone stop me from buying things i dont really need..?

pleaaasseee...

but dont stop me from eating!

this is so not forgivable..

hahahahahahaha...

mungkin cukup sampai di sini aku recap ape yang terlintas di fikiran ni..

later will write again..

hehehehe..

 pagi tadi terserempak dengan someone yg dulu inspired me to take actuarial course..

and he still remember me!

sungguh tak ku sangka..

hope esok ketemu lagi kita..

goodnight..

sweet dreams..

>> feeling..

salam to all readers..

=)

seriously..

tak feeling kot blogging via phone..

tak sama feeling dia blogging with laptop..

hahaha..

boleh pulak kena ada feeling feeling kan..

cakap pasal feeling..

dah lama aku tak ada feeling mcm ni..

apekah?

adalah...

jeng jeng jeng..

>> new year, new job..

salam to all readers..

=)

happy new year!

wishing you all the best..

as title above: new year, new job..

yeay!

cik liana is now hired in a bank!

Alhamdulillah..

(^_^)v

tercapai last minute wish untuk 2013: to secure a job..

first day kerja, meeting new people..

best best best..

doakan yang terbaik buat saya..

(^_^)v

>> kereta impian..

salam to all readers..

=)

to be honest,

aku takde kereta impian pun..

serius..

aku takde cita-cita untuk memiliki kereta sekian sekian..

tak macam orang tu, ada angan-angan nak pakai Audi, Mercedes, Ford etc.

memang betul..

aku tak pernah ada impian nak beli kereta apa-apa..

kalau ade pun, setakat Kancil dengan Myvi je..

kenapa?

kalau aku explain kenapa aku berfikiran begini, adakah anda mahu menerimanya?

rather than having a new car, i wish i can have a house under my name before i'm 30..

dulu-dulu masa sekolah menengah, rasenye macam umur 25 dah boleh beli rumah..

tapi sekarang apa jadi?

terpaksa extend lagi 5 tahun..

sebab harga rumah terlalu mahal!

harga rumah makin hari, makin tahun, makin naik..

tapi harga kereta?

kau beli kereta tahun ni rm50,000.. 

agak-agak tahun depan model yang sama, ade tak rm55,000?

takde punye..

kalau mahal pun mesti yang upgraded version..

kan..

kalau beli rumah..

tahun ni rm200,000..

there is a higher chance for it to be rm250,000 the next year..

macam melampau-lampau pulak perumpamaan aku ni..

tapi ini lah realiti hidup masa kini..

fyi, my family tak habis-habis brainwash aku:

"nanti dah dapat kerja boleh la beli kereta baru.."

aku diam je..

kadang-kadang aku jawab,

"kereta saga tu kan ada.. okay lagi.. buat apa nak beli baru?"

dan mereka pula yang terdiam..

rumah flat yang aku duduk kat wangsa maju ni, mula-mula dulu harga rm20,000 je..

sekarang?

almost rm200,000..

padahal rumah kecik je.. 2 bilik, 1 bilik air..

boleh sampai 200k kan..

sepuluh kali ganda berbanding 20 tahun yang dulu..

see??

kalau beli kereta 20 tahun yang dulu, agak-agak sekarang ni harga dia sepuluh kali ganda tak?

confirm tak..

kemungkinan besar harga kereta tu cuma 1/10 je dari harga asal..

or maybe less..

lagi satu sebab aku rasa beli kereta baru ni macam satu pembaziran ialah:

maintainence mahal..

kereta saga aku vs kereta myvi kakak aku

agak-agak maintainence sape yang tinggi?

of course kereta myvi..

minyak sama-sama jimat, tol sama-sama bayar..

tapi maintainence tak sama yer kawan-kawan..

korang (new car user) kene prepare duit roadtax + insurance hampir rm2,000 setiap tahun..

my expenses on those things tak sampai rm500 pun..

orang kata, orang yang kata la.. bukan aku yang kata..

kereta lama ni banyak buat hal..

Alhamdulillah setakat ni kereta aku takde meragam buat hal ape-ape ke..

sebab tiap-tiap kali aku bawak, aku cakap aku sayang dia..

*mcm orang giler.. hahaha

setakat tukar drive sharp, tukar tayar tu..

bukan kereta baru pun akan kene tukar ke bende2 tu kalau dah rosak?

sama je kan..

elok-elok takde hutang..

dah kene hutang rm 50,000 (kereta zaman sekarang)

at least kene bayar rm500 sebulan..

tu tak masuk duit minyak, duit tol, duit maintenance lagi tu..

tup tup, rm1,000 habis kat kereta je..

kalau gaji besar, takpe la jugak..

ni setakat gaji cukup-cukup makan..

lagi la parah..

kesimpulannya,

baru dapat kerja ni, aku taknak beli kereta!

biar adik aku yang beli kereta lain..

aku nak beli tanah atau rumah..

may Allah ease my way..

ameen..

(^_^)v

>> low BP..

salam to all readers..

=)

hari ni aku pergi buat follow-up..

check darah lagi..

fyi, hari tu aku masuk hospital 4 hari sebab suspek denggi..

tapi bila check-check punya check..

denggi negative, just a viral fever..

but with low platelet counts + low blood pressure..

hari ni result darah dah okay, platelet dah naik..

from 93 to 140..

graf platelet aku memang bentuk V since first day admitted to the last day..

the lowest count is 65..

fyi, normal platelet count is around 180-400..

jauh tak beza dengan normal count?

but 140 is considered okay la..

taaaaapi..

today my blood pressure is too low..

97/53

T____T

bila doktor cakap kene buat iv drip, aku rase mcm nak pengsan je..

sebab rase mcm tak sanggup dah la nak kene cucuk dengan jarum besar tu lagi..

rase macam nak lari je..

tapi nak tak nak..

buat la jugak..

ngeri kot experience masuk jarum tu..

ngeri dan scary dan ngilu dan macam-macam lagi..

bertahan selama sejam masuk air..

sampai ngantuk-ngantuk nak tertidur..

last-las setel jugak..

lepas masuk air tu, check blood pressure lagi..

but still low..

100/40

lagi dahsyat..

hahaha..

iv drip tak membantu..

any tips on increasing platelet counts + blood pressure?

aku assume, nak naikkan blood pressure, just makan makanan yang org yang ada darah tinggi tak boleh makan.

e.g: daging, kambing etc.

tak gitu?

>> azam 2013..

salam to all readers..

=)

azam 2013..

yes.. you guys read it right..

azam tahun ni yang tercapai:

1. TVXQ concert

this is the best moment in my life! jumpa ChangMin depan mata kan..

2. graduation

i've been struggling so much to survive, and i did it!

3. job

yeay! cik liana dah dapat kerja! =)

4. make-up tools

cik liana dah pandai nak make up dah sekarang.. 

5. swimming suit

kalau cuti, aku pergi swimming okay.. hehe

6. polaroid camera

mr siwon super junior pernah pegang polaroid aku, kau ade?

yang tak tercapai:

1. bungee jumping

2. jungle trekking

3. cuti cuti malaysia

hohoho..

takpe takpe..

azam 2014 macam mana pulak?

nanti nanti fikir..

(^_^)v

>> scared..

salam to all readers..

=|

confession: i'm scared of everything!

i'm scared of animals..

i'm scared of humans..

i'm scared of myself..

and i'm scared of the nature of the world..

things get worse when i try to overcome those..

and i keep being scared..

and sometime it is even more worst than before..

>> benci betul..

salam to all readers..

=)

walaupun aku tak suka atau benci kat seseorang tu..

tak pernah pulak aku mengapi-apikan orang lain tentang keburukan dia..

tak pernah pulak aku buka aib dia, walaupun orang sekeliling bertanya..

mendiamkan diri itu lebih baik..

 

sabar je la..

>> KLCC Korea Fair..

salam to all readers..

=)

hari ni aku pergi KLCC semata-mata nak menjengah Korea Fair nih..

or to be exact..

SMTown Fair..

ye la.. semua SMTown punye barang kot..

hehehe..

fyi, TVXQ adalah artis dia bawah naungan SM entertainment..

so, you get what i mean there?

hehehe..

posing kejap dengan poster besar TVXQ..

(^_^)v

datang-datang je terus cari TVXQ official merchandise..

tadaaaaaa~ 

harga?

standard harga official merchandise..

bagi pekerja part time macam saya, masih lagi belum mampu memiliki semua..

sobs3x..

kalau cakap harga standard tu, that means range RM 60 - 150 for each item..

nak jugak bergambar dengan ChangMin..

hehehe..

poster ni RM 64 each.

with YunHo Oppa..

poster ni RM 120++ each.

kenapa takde ChangMin version like this?

kenapa?

kenapa.....??

kenapa.......????

hasil tangkapan hari ni: 

tak lain tak bukan, mesti ChangMin..

button RM 15 each..

YunHo punye menggoda, tapi sebab budget tak banyak, aku beli satu je..

sila paham..

SM memang pandai cari duit..

buat benda ntah pape, then bubuh gambar artis dia, terus boleh mark up tinggi-tinggi..

keychain TVXQ yg member aku nak tuh harga dia RM 102 each.. bila aku belek-belek, mcm keychain biase je..

tumblr RM120++, eye mask RM99, dan sebagainye..

ade yang aku rasa macam tak berbaloi je beli pun ada..

pape pun.. 

lepas jugak gian nak pergi tengok Korea Fair ni..

haha..

Korea la sangat..

and the most important thing,

now i have at least one official merchandise of TVXQ..

hehehe..

tata!

(^_^)v