>> motif??

salam to all readers..

=)

berangan-angan nak beli fujifilm instax mini 8..

warna apa lagi kan kalau bukan pink..

bukan pink, bukan liana la kan..

*poyo!

baca review setiap satu blog yang dah guna kamera ni, masing-masing bagi pandangan yang positif..

lagi la membuak-buak perasaan nak beli tu..

then i ask myself a thousand times..

why should i buy it?

jeng....

jeng........

jeng.............

sebab utama: aku nak tangkap gambar aku pakai jubah + teddy bear besar + BFFs..

boleh tak camtu..?

hahahahaha..

boleh la.. boleh la.. 

tetiba aku dapat idea kreatif ni pulak..

nanti kalau aku kahwin nanti, aku boleh guna kamera ni untuk guest book..

sedara mara, kawan-kawan yang datang boleh la berposing, dan sertakan ucapan camtu..

pergh..

kreatif.. kreatif..

ehem..

bila ko nak kahwin ni, cik liana?

*tersedak..

tunggu Changmin la..

dia tak ready, aku pun tak ready..

*ayat cover line yang paling tak masuk akal

p/s: soal kahwin ni memang isu sensitif bagi gadis single macam cik liana..

sekian..

>> berangan tak ingat..

remember this post??

>> dream comes true..

okay..

aku ini dah mula berangan nak jumpa 2 orang mamat hensem nih..

cis..!

nape la beliau sangat2 hensem di mata saya nih..??

apa ilmu yg beliau dah guna buat saya tergila2kan beliau sampai mcm ni..??

ntah la..

saya pun xtaw la..

reminder:

my 

imagination 

sometimes 

quiet 

weird 

and 

a bit 

wild..

beware..

aku dah siap berangan kalau dorg datang Malaysia ape yg aku nak buat..

and i really27x hope that timing mereka sesuai sgt2..

yakni bukan time exam or test..

dan aku terlebih2 la suka kalau time cuti..

kan..?

1. jemput dorang kat  airport, KLIA..

2. menjadi stalker terhebat sampai ke hotel tempat dorang menginap..

3. if possible.. biar dorg perasan ade sorang minah ni asyik ikut dorg even pergi ke toilet pun.. 

yakni aku.. 

skali yunho babai kat aku pun jadi la..

(^__^)v

4. stalking.. stalking... dan stalking lagi...

oh no..!!

they smile at my camera..!!

kyaaaaa...!!!

going crazy for a while..

5. ade chance.. nak cakap dengan changmin..!!

nanti kalau Changmin tanya..

"are you the one that been following us all this while..??"

"err...." aku diam terkaku..

"nope.. its not me.. maybe someone else.." pura2 xtaw padahal betul itu aku..

padahal dalam hati melonjak2 kegembiraan sebab dia perasan aku..

>___<

6. time konsert.. beli tiket yg dekat dengan stage..

pastu kalau tibe2 mood meroyan dah datang..

selamber je naik atas stage grab changmin..

hahahhahaha...

gile ganas liana ni rupenye..

mesti femes la satu dunia..

pastu kene tahan sekuriti..

kene halau..

but then i manage to get back in and do the same thing again..

do it twice..

and i'll automatically send to Tanjung Rambutan..

=_="

kan best kalau mcm tu..?

at least i leave some marks for them to remember me..

kan..??

anda ade brani buat mcm tu..??

mesti tidak..

pasni taubat la dorg nk dtg Malaysia lagi..

hehehe..

mmg itu pun tujuan aku..

sekali dorang datang sudah la..

xpayah aku nk membazir duit tiap2 tahun kalau dorg dtg sini lagi..

kan..??

7. curi henpon changmin senyap2 pastu pulangkan balik depan dia cakap henpon dia tercicir tadi..

sebab aku nak nombor fon dia..!

so nanti boleh la kan aku call dia every day and night..

last2 nanti end up kitorg kapel then kawen..

ha..

amacam..??

mesti korang kecewa kan tgk aku best je kawen ngan Changmin satu hari nanti..

kan..??

ni adalah idea paling bernas yang aku rasa aku patut buat..

tapi mcm mana..??

hurm..

kene atur strategi nih..

okay..

ini semua angan2 sahaja..

probability for all this to occur is depends on whether they really come or not..

but the probability for number 5 and 7 are slightly lower than another..

and the probability that number 6 happens are higher if and only if liana mmg gila time tu..

we assume the probability follows Liana's distribution with mean Changmin and variance Yunho with $ number of populations..

okay..

aku ini memang xbetul sekarang..

hope anda2 sume paham..

stress study lebih sangat..

ini la jadinye..

sekian..

>> adakah ini dinamakan JODOH..??

the day i got my 1st glasses.. 

he wear it on that day performance.. 

looks the same as mine.. 

but he got the bigger frame.. 

is it coincidence..?? 

or destiny..?? 

 adakah ini dinamakan JODOH..?? 

(^__^)v

p/s: we look good together, right..??

hehehehehe..

>> phone baru..

kawan-kawan ku sekalian.. 

akhirnya.. 

aku dah beli hadphone baru..!! 

yeay..!! 

ni dia wajah phone baru aku..

i-phone 4 tu beb..!

jgn memain..

thanx to diri sendiri sebab akhirnya berjaya beli i-phone ni..

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okay..

aku tipu..

sorry.

aku mana mampu beb nk beli bende2 canggih cenggini..

huhuhu..

sedih nye..!

tapi x salah kan kalau nk berangan2 sikit..?

hehe..

ni aku ade la jugak usha2 sikit beberapa jenis phone yg aku agak minat tapi xde la minat sampai perlu memilikinya..

1. Sony Ericsson XPERIA Neo

sumpah smart..

slim..

cantek..

cun..

perfect..!

tapi..

ehem2..

aku xboleh r dgn touchscreen ni weyh..!

tangan aku jenis basah..

so paham2 je la yek kesesuaian & keserasian tgn yg basah dgn brg2 touchscreen..

=_="

next please...

2. Blackberry Bold 9780

3. Blackberry Curve 9300

dan sekutu dgnnya..

ntah bila la aku boleh memiliki henpon2 cenggini..

haish~

=_="

tapi kan..

blacberry punye screen mmg kecik ek..??

hohohoho..

x best la mcm nie..

ehem ehem...

xde sape2 ke nk bagi aku henpon baru..??

takpe la kalau xnak beli pun..

henpon lama aku masih berfungsi dengan baik..

kecuali keypad '5' xboleh tekan la kan..

tu je..

dah setahun lebih aku boleh hidup tanpa keypad '5'.. 

agak2 aku bleh x bersabar lagi tunggu another 3 years..??

mesti boleh kan..??

so..

aku guna je la dulu..

dah kerja nanti..

habis la..

sume aku beli..

keh3x..

fyi..

perasaan ingin memiliki henpon baru tu x kuat lagi..

tunggu la sampai aku betul2 teringin kang..

time tu baru kelam kabut kumpul duit nk beli phone..

hehehehe..

peace..!

(^_^)v

reminder for myself :

liana..!! before beli phone.. pergi amek lesen dulu la...!!!! 

>.<"

>> minat..

korang..!! hot x mamat ni..??

aku minat giler ngan dorg..

giler minat la..

tiap2 hari kot aku menatap gmbr dorang..

korg je yg xtaw..

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okay..

itu tipu..

beb..!

i can't deny my heart la beb..!

>.<"

the only celebrity that i loved the most is ChangMin..

2nd place is TVXQ.. consist of Junsu, Yoochun, Jaejoong, Changmin & Yunho.. 

hurm..

it's not because they are korean..

its because..

hurm..

yup..

because they're korean..

=_="

but believe me..

i don't find anything special in all other guys (celebrity) la..

no matter if it is Americans or where ever country they come from..

i just don't really attach to them..

i'm talking about artist and celerity okay.

not an ordinary person..

for an ordinary person..

for sure..

i prefer Malay boys more..

in fact..

there's a few of Malay boys that i like..

just like only maa..

nothing more nothing less..

ahax~

sambil2 tu usha calon2 suami kan..

hahahahaha..

(^_^)v

p/s: kalau ashraf muslim tu kenal aku.. agak2 dia nak x ajak aku kawin..?? hahahaha.. =D

aku nk cari calon suami mcm dia ni la..

beriman, x merokok, pakai spek, baik.. 

hehehehe..

real sikit kan..??

(^_^)v

[My Story] : Chapter 3 - all being nice to me..

“wait.. is MBC station in Jeju Island..?  I don’t think so.” I asked with a blurr face.
“you’re right.. we’re flying there with my personal jet..”
“what..??” it’s totally unbelievable..!
Okay.. we’re going there actually. I don’t really know how to describe the journey because it  all feel just like in dream.. 


When we first arrive at the MBC station. The first one that i saw from far was Jaejoong..  i saw he looked at me, but he moved his head to another side.. it’s quite impolite for me. Huhu..  then Changmin brought me to TVXQ’s dressing room.. as expected.. Jaejoong is not there.. there’s only Junsu, Yoochun, Yunho and their manager hyung..


“anyeong haseyo..” i speak politely as i bow my body 45 degree..
“ahh.. anyeong haseyo..” they replied me the same way..
“이 사람은 누구야? (yi sarameun duguya?) *who’s this person?*” i heard Yoochun asked Changmin as he pointed toward me.. then he smiled at me.. =)
“this is our big fan.. i met her just a while ago at jeju island cafe..” changmin replied Yoochun in English..
“yaaahh.. Changmin now speak in English really well.. daebak..!” yoochun teased him.. and the whole room is filled with laughter..


They want to hug me.. but i’m refused.. looks like they understand it.. well.. i’m wearing my hijab, right.? So there’s no need to explain further. But they do give out their hand for me to shake, and i accepted it. Why..? because i wore hand gloves..! haha.. looks like really desperate of me..


We having a chat altogether.. luckily i understand a bit of Korean.. even it is only a bit,  at least we can communicate really well.. and i have 2 translator here if i don’t understand what they say.. Changmin and Yoochun.. but mostly we’re speaking in English.. hehe.. Junsu and Yunho’s English was improving a lot too.. so its not that difficult to have a chat with them..  they also teach me some new words too.. wow.. i’m so lucky being here..


“now it’s really difficult to find a fan like you.. you know.. since we’re being together back.. maybe it was too late.. many of our fan moved to the other fandom..” yunho said with a quite sad tone..
“really..? i don’t think so.. there are so many great fan out there.. as far as i know.. since you guys get back together.. i heard the number of Cassiopeia keep increasing until now..” i explain to him. Actually.. i lied.. because i didn’t know their latest activities anymore.. i’m not keep following them anymore.. why..? because i already left them since i’m with my ex.. huhuhu.. shhhh.. 
“eh..? really..? where did you get those information.?” Junsu asked excitedly.
“internet..” i replied him as i do some finger movements as i’m pressing computer keyboard button.. hehe..


Bla bla bla bla.. then suddenly Onew of Shinee and Victoria from f(x) come into the room.. onew said something to Yunho and i think it’s about their turn is next.. so the 4 members of TVXQ left the room and left me with Onew and Victoria.. only 3 of us.. its really awkward actually.. silence..  i don’t know what to do in front of them.. and they remain silence too.. and then i took out my diary and asked them for an autograph.. only then we talked.. but we didn’t talk much.. because i don’t know what to talk about.. after they give me their autograph.. we keep silence back.. it’s really awkward.. 


suddenly.. Jaejoong came to the room.. checking his group member..
“do you see Changmin..? i thought he’s with you just now..” jae asked me..
“me..? oh.. he went to the stage already..” i told him..
“he left you here all by yourself..? they leave you here..?” 
“yeah.. they said i can wait here if i want to..”
“oh.. come on.. follow me..” jae try to reach my hand.. and yes.! He pull me and we’re going to the backstage..!


As we’re on our way.. jae’s hand always with mine.. it’s kinda weird. You know.. some thingy feeling.. just like that.. i can’t do nothing except to follow him..
When we arrived at the backstage.. changmin saw jaejoong and me holding hands.. 
“yah.. how can you leave her in the dressing room just like that..? why don’t let her see what we got here..?” Jaejoong scold Changmin..
“but she said she’d be alright..” Yunho replied for Changmin..
“ehh..it’s okay.. it’s okay.. i don’t want to be a troublesome for you guys.. never mind.. don’t bother about me.. just do your job nicely.. hehe..” i said.. then i smiled..
“okay.. you can wait here and see how we gonna perform later.. or do you want a VIP seats..? i got one extra ticket here.. you can seat there and watch us..” jaejoong said as he give me his ticket.. yeah.. it is really VVIP tickets you know..!the first row, in the middle.. and the distance between me and the stage is just a few meter..! wow..!


i really wonder.. why do they all be so nice to me..? have i saved the country in my previous life..? ooh.. this is Korean thought actually when you’ve been really lucky.. but i don’t know what have i done yet i received this kind of treatment.. from TVXQ you know.. wow. Really lucky me.. 




To be continued..

[My Story] : Chapter 2 - Unexpected Meeting

a few years later.. i decided to take a vacation.. i want to stop being in my own little world.. after being lectured by my mom, my family and my friends.. i decided to bring my mind at peace.. for what purpose i keep remembered that scene..? and him..? it just hurt me more and more..

and now.. i'm here.. alone.. at jeju island..

 a place that once i've been dreaming to go since i'm 16.. wow.. the scenery is not that bad.. it's awesome..! much more beautiful than in the drama.. the sea breeze really can make my heart at peace..

as i wandering down the street when i'm about to go back to the hotel.. i saw someone that look very familiar.. i came nearer.. oh no..! its Changmin..! and he's alone drinking a cup of coffee in that cafe..! what..? i really can't believe my eyes.. for 5 years i've been his fan.. but i stop because my boyfriend don't allow me to since we couple.. but now.. he's right in front of my eyes..! i don't need to think about that b***** who dumped me and cause me this huge pain.. even more.. he want me to stop be a fan.. seriously.. he didn't know how much i valued this treasure.. and he tell me to stop.. he said i'm just getting hurt if i continue to be his fan.. but now he's the one who hurt me most.. not Changmin..

i make up my mind to come closer to him.. i don't want to lose this precious oppurtinity.. i came towards him bravely..


"안녕하세요.. (anyeong hasaeyo) *hello*" i bravely approached him..
"안녕하세요.." he politely replied me and bow his head..
"urmm.. 당신은 혼자에요? (dangshineun honjaaeyo..?) *are you alone?*" i asked him.. afraid that i would be such a bother..
"네.. 하지만, 누구 ...세요? (nae.. hajiman, nugu..saeyo? *yes.. but, who are you?*"
i smiled happily.. he talked to me..! he talked to me..!!
"owh.. err.. 내가 liana 입니다.. (naega liana ibnida) *i am liana..* 난 당신의 팬이에요..!(nan dangshineui paeni aeyo) *i'm your fan..!*" with an excited voices of mine..
he smiled at me and said, " 감사합니다.. (kamsa hamnida) *thank you*" gratefully..
oh no.. he keep smiling as he talking with me.. =)
"한국 아라요? (hanguk arayo?) * do you understand korean?*" he asked me..
"err.. 한국 조금 아라요 (hanguk chogeum arayo) *i understand only a little korean..*"
"then never mind.. i understand english quite well.. just be natural with it.." he said.. maybe he noticed that i'm not too confident using korean.. hehe..
"owh.. okay.. can i have a picture with you..?" i asked him..
"sure.."
after we snap the picture.. i have one more favour to ask.. for sure.. i want his autograph..
"can i have your autograph too..?"
"okay.. give me your paper.."
i search all over in my bag.. i didn't have any blank paper.. i just have my diary.. but.. never mind.. let him sign on my diary.. this will be the most precious moment ever in my life..!

"how long you've been my fan..?" he asked me gently..
"hurm.. i know you since 2008.. for five years i've been your fan but then i stop...." err.. 'why did i mention about this..? pabo..~'
"may i know why did you stop..?"
silence.. i don't want him to know.. i don't want to talk about this matter anymore..
"it's okay if you don't want to tell.." he acting cool.. this is the Changmin that i known all this while..
"do you have a girlfriend right now..? i mean.. are you dating..? 여자 친구?? (yeoja chingu) *girlfriend* "
"nope.. i've been dumped a few years ago.. and i don't think i'm ready yet to find a new lover.."
"나도..(na do) *me too*"
"진짜..? (chincha..?) * really..?*"
"yes.. and maybe that is the reason that brought me here.. and maybe its my destiny to met you in this place.." i smiled bitterly..
and we started to chat with each other.. and i think we use banmal in our chat.. because i'm also not sure whether my korean is the polite one or not.. haha..


we have a chat as we've known each other for a long time.. but this is actually the first time i met him.. maybe he's being comfortable with me as i'm not like any other fan girls that only said compliments and such things.. =)
after a few hours of having a talk with him.. actually.. we didn't realized that we've been chatting about hours until Changmin noticed it..
" i never thought that  i will get to have a chat with you.." i said it happily..
"well.. we never sure about what will happen in the future too.. right..?"

then he looks at his watch.. seems like he have a schedule after this..
"are you busy..?" i asked him..
"hurm.. sorry.. i have a schedule after this.. do you want to come with me..?"
"어디에..(odiyeo) *where?*"
"MBC station.. there you'll meet all of my members.. i mean.. TVXQ.."
seriously..! my face turn red.. not beacuse i'm shy.. but because i'm too happy..!! kyaaaaa...!! my teenage-dream come true..!
"seeing your face.. i assume you'd agree.." he teased me..
"oppa.. for sure i'll agree.. i've been dreaming about this for such a long time.. nobody even thinks that i managed to fulfill this dream.."
"okay.. kaja..! *lets go..!*"





to be continued.. 

[My Story] : Chapter 1- the break up

its been a while since he left me.. i don't know where did i do wrong.. i don't know.. i'm totally clueless.. he just left me like that.. and the scars in here feel like it will never be healed.. so deep.. and it's hurt..

since that day.. I've been wondering in my own little world alone.. yes.. alone.. i abandoned everyone around me.. feel like they never exist.. i do feel sorry to those who care about me.. but it just.. argh.. it's hard to tell.. really hard to tell.. and since that moment.. i promised to myself not to fall in love again..

working like there's no tomorrow.. its all my life about.. normal working hours start from 9 in the morning to 5pm.. but mine.. almost 24 hours a day..

*flashback*

its nine in the evening.. and its raining heavily.. he want to meet me at the park in this hour..? is he kind of insane..? hurm.. such a terrible timing.. but i still went there.. wearing white sweater, worn out jeans and black scarf.. really simple way of dressing.. this is me anyway.. with an umbrella on my left and i-phone at the other side.. oh gosh.. i kinda late for this..

when i arrived.. i saw two human figures from a far.. and i know who it is.. its him.. but who is the other one..? looks like a woman.. as i came nearer.. i recognized that woman.. she's my best friend..! what did she do with my boyfriend..? a lot of negative thought appeared in my mind.. but i didn't expect that my thought will be real..

"liana.. i'm so sorry.." he finally said something..
"what are you sorry for..?" i pretend like a dumb.. i know what is that means..  but i hardly can't accept it..
he so speechless.. the girl too..
"we're truly sorry.." they both said it together as i saw them holding each other hands.. what..? i'm kinda shocked.. in fact.. we.. i mean.. he and i never ever holding each other before.. he told me to protect my hijab.. and to control all of my actions.. he teach me how to be a good muslimah.. and i believe he is a good muslim too.. but now..? huh..?

"since when did you guys......." argh.. its hard for me to continue the sentences..
"we're married yesterday.." he said it calmly..

DUSH..!! married..? isn't it suppose we to get married next year..? and with my best friend..? i grinned my teeth as i control myself from crying.. i just  have thought that they're in a relationship behind my back.. never thought of them to get married behind my back.. and it is yesterday..? why all of sudden..??

i felt down on my knees.. feel like i have no more strength to lift up.. my umbrella was already touch the ground..  seriously.. why did this happen to me..? 'i cannot cry in front of him.. i cannot cry in front of him..!' i said to myself.. she wanted to lift me up.. but i don't have any strength to do that.. i cannot stand on my own feet..  it too sudden..!

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after they'd gone.. i cry heavily as the rain falls.. my world seems so dark.. no lights.. even if they are a single stray of light.. its gone..!

*end of flashback*


to be continued...